It was actually far from my first response. It was more my, "just in case" before we went camping response. I don't know if I'd recommend taking a pregnancy test hours before you go on a rustic camping adventure. It yielded a distracted and flooded mama for much of the trip. Cause, yes, it tested POSITIVE! We were shocked. Austin and I just kind of sat there, stunned,looking at each other.
I wish I could say my first response was worship and praise, but honestly it was a flooding response of anxiety and doubt. Austin's first response was one of disbelief; "The test is old, right? Surely it's wrong."
Since taking the test, Father has gently lead my heart through the excitement, fear, anticipation and even grief (having 2 little ones in the world I live in will greatly limit what I can do outside the 4 walls of our yard). He's used Laura Story's "Bless the Lord" over and over to lead my heart. It's true "He gives and takes away . . . for He alone can see the secret parts of me that need to be swept away." I am confident that in the arrival of a fourth little gift He will refine and shape me in ways He wouldn't have without this new life.
So, February 29th (not that I anticipate an Amershek baby arriving on time) we'll welcome a 4th little Amershek baby into our home. Until then, I plan to soak up the moments with baby number 3; I feel like his baby days will in someways be shortened in becoming a big brother so quickly.
I wish I could say my first response was worship and praise, but honestly it was a flooding response of anxiety and doubt. Austin's first response was one of disbelief; "The test is old, right? Surely it's wrong."
Since taking the test, Father has gently lead my heart through the excitement, fear, anticipation and even grief (having 2 little ones in the world I live in will greatly limit what I can do outside the 4 walls of our yard). He's used Laura Story's "Bless the Lord" over and over to lead my heart. It's true "He gives and takes away . . . for He alone can see the secret parts of me that need to be swept away." I am confident that in the arrival of a fourth little gift He will refine and shape me in ways He wouldn't have without this new life.
So, February 29th (not that I anticipate an Amershek baby arriving on time) we'll welcome a 4th little Amershek baby into our home. Until then, I plan to soak up the moments with baby number 3; I feel like his baby days will in someways be shortened in becoming a big brother so quickly.

