Saturday, 30 July 2011

First Response





It was actually far from my first response.  It was more my, "just in case" before we went camping response.  I don't know if I'd recommend taking a pregnancy test hours before you go on a rustic camping adventure.  It yielded  a distracted and flooded mama for much of the trip.  Cause, yes, it tested POSITIVE!  We were shocked.  Austin and I just kind of sat there, stunned,looking at each other.

I wish I could say my first response was worship and praise, but honestly it was a flooding response of anxiety and doubt.  Austin's first response was one of disbelief; "The test is old, right?  Surely it's wrong." 

Since taking the test, Father has gently lead my heart through the excitement, fear, anticipation and even grief (having 2 little ones in the world I live in will greatly limit what I can do outside the 4 walls of our yard).  He's used Laura Story's "Bless the Lord" over and over to lead my heart.  It's true "He gives and takes away . . . for He alone can see the secret parts of me that need to be swept away."  I am confident that in the arrival of a fourth little gift He will refine and shape me in ways He wouldn't have without this new life.   

So, February 29th (not that I anticipate an Amershek baby arriving on time) we'll welcome a 4th little Amershek baby into our home.  Until then, I plan to soak up the moments with baby number 3; I feel like his baby days will in someways be shortened in becoming a big brother so quickly.  


7 comments:

Priscilla Sapp said...

Babu and Gogo are so excited!! It is an excellent reason for a trip to see you all! Remembering Mom, baby and family as you anticipate this next gift!

Kate said...

Jenni~ Congratulations!! I'll be thinking of you! :)

~Katie Eck

P.S. I've been meaning to tell you that I have a blog. May I add a link from my blog to your blog, or would you prefer it remain among family/friends? I'll honor your decision. Miss you!

Nate Sapp said...

WOOOOO HOOOOO! We are so excited for another Amershek!

Sandie said...

Bob and I rejoice with you as you receive this Gift from God. We walked through this experience a little over 31 years ago, and we are so very glad God answered a prayer we had not uttered! He knows how much He plans to bless you through this child, just as He has richly blessed us with His gift to us!

Erica said...

What a surprise. We're excited for you guys and I'm sure he'll prepare ways for you to be a part of the work with little ones along side.

Lisa @ Life is Crazy Beautiful said...

Congratulations! 4 was my "dream" number of children before God informed us His dream for us was better. Praying for you all.

TheHappyNeills said...

oh my gosh, congratulations!!! yea!!!